In the waiting room...

I thought this year would bring wonderful whatever's because it's a master year for me, but really thus far it's been me practicing staying in the moment while I'm in the waiting room of life.   I've been wondering and asking my inner higher power, just what my vision is for my life and am keenly aware that I feel like I'm way far behind.  I mean like I should have gotten a head start on something, right?
I have too many unrealistic expectations of myself and truth is, I've been deeply committed to clearing up and facing up to the legacy of my family dysfunction and truly have grown, I swear I have!
Business seems to be on hiatus and I'm waiting to return to my old fav' vocation, gaming.  Not.  But really, I am grateful for my skills, I have skills.  No degree but I have skills.
Van & I are doing great and this month we celebrated two years together.  For me, this is a milestone because I hadn't lived with a man for over 16 years before now.  He's a sweetheart and graciously tolerates my crazy insanities.  Gotta love a man who goes with the flow of disconnected spontaneity.
My precious baby girl enlisted in the Army and then got herself out again after just over a year.  Watching her and wondering, just how her journey will unfold but frankly, I'm busy with my own.  She's married now and expecting her first child next January.
Dennis and Robin both have lovely families and have multiplied quite nicely.
The family tree goes on, and on, and on, and on...
Me, I've been an empty nester for awhile.  No kids and no pets.
Just yesterday, Van &  I rescued a little tiny dog named Pixie.  Pixie has already discovered mommy's lap.  She gets to be an only child, er dog.  It's nice to be loved and needed again by one so small while I wait.  Wait for the next unfolding of my professional, creative, work life.  That's it for now...